Logan is developing quite a little personality! He loves to crawl away from us as we chase him but he turns around every three steps or so to check on us while he giggles like crazy. He "escapes" after I change his diaper and crawls behind the glider chair and won't come out until I look in another direction when he then will come charging out and try to get out the door before I can grab him. His laugh is hilarious, the main characteristic being the gasping/laughing sound he makes as he draws air in. He eats like crazy. He still won't eat fruit but he loves just about everything else, especially yogurt. The other day he drank (guzzled) half of my green smoothie and then cried at me until I gave him the rest from the blender cup. I then had to convince Ethan to share some of his because Logan still wasn't satisfied! He used to cry whenever I left the room but now he is getting more independent. He sometimes even
leaves the room I am in and I have to go after him to see what he is up to. On Monday of this week Ethan woke up early and came into my bed to snuggle. Ethan and I fell back asleep but after about 15 minutes Logan woke up. After nursing and playing some with Logan we went back to my room where we crawled into bed with Ethan. Logan insisted on getting down. 30 minutes later I woke up again to Logan talking! He had just crawled around and played while Ethan and I had slept for another half an hour! It was awesome. And much needed.
Ethan is getting to be such a big kid. He is three and a half years old today. He is talking so well and can tell me about what he did at preschool and nursery. He is very clever and can remember everything, from what I have said to where I have put something. He also remembers everybody's name. From his friends, to their moms, to our neighbors, he always remembers and calls people by their names. It is pretty impressive. He is so excited to have grass to the point of being protective of it. He tells everyone that comes over that we can't walk on the grass. He checks on the grass every day and shoos away the birds that come to eat the seed. He LOVES to take care of Logan and even helped feed him this week while I made Ethan's lunch. He is SO FULL OF ENERGY. People comment on it all the time. But he is also super sweet and thoughtful. At the pumpkin patch while Jen and I were getting things out of the car Ethan grabbed Charlotte and put his arms protectively around her so that she wouldn't run out in front of the cars driving by. He randomly tells me he loves me almost every day. He also has been completely potty trained for over a month now. Whew.
This week I have thought a lot about how my boys will be grown before I know it. I have really tried hard to imprint in my memory what it feels like to have Logan hold my finger while he nurses or how Ethan's three year old body fits perfectly in mine when I lay next to him, my face against his head and his back and legs against my stomach and upper legs. I know I will look back someday and wish I could be back here to experience this all again. Some days I am exhausted. Some days I don't know what I will do with the remaining fifteen minutes before nap time. Or like today, sitting alone in sacrament because Trent is up on the stand, I am drained by one kid that is climbing in and under pews and another one that refuses to nap even though he is exhausted. But overall I am happy. These two boys are everything to me. They make my life worth living. I cry when I think of all the things that could happen to them. But I am hopeful and grateful that I can trust Heavenly Father's plan for them.