Tuesday, September 12, 2017

To four year old Logan

Logan,

Oh my, you are a goofball. You have always been my sweet, tender, darling boy and then you had to go and turn four and turn into this goofy, button pushing, giggly boy! You love to be chased and you love to be tickled. You still have a serious, thoughtful side to you but I think that you are getting so comfortable with the world around you that you can be sillier than you ever have been.

I wanted to write about what a deep thinker you are. When you calm down from all your silliness you share with Dad and I some pretty amazing thoughts that are swirling around in that little blonde head of yours.

You're teachers at church just love you. Technically you should still be a sunbeam but we put you in Primary a year early. We weren't going to, we didn't want to be those parents. But you cried every Sunday after moving to Montana you did NOT want to go to nursery. You have always been uncomfortable around people you don't know well, but even after 10 months in the ward you just wouldn't go to nursery without a lot of tears. In the month of December, before you turned 3, every time we would tell you it was Sunday and we had to get ready for church you would break down in tears and scream and cry and tell us that you WERE NOT going to church. It became so bad. I couldn't bear that you hated church at such a young age! The Primary president knew all about you told us to just move you up to Primary early if we thought it would help you. I politely declined saying you would be fine. But that first Sunday in January you cried the most you ever had about getting ready for church, it was like you were traumatized! So before I could even think I said, "Guess what?? Today you get to go to Primary with Ethan!" You stopped crying immediately. "I do?? YAY!!" You were so excited you threw on your church clothes, immediately loved your Sunbeam teachers whom you had never met, and never complained about church again! (well, at least not for a very long time :)). Anyway, despite the fact that you shouldn't be in CTR 4 you are often the only kid in your class that shows up for Primary. You have had several teachers over the past year and a half but they have always been impressed by you. They tell me stories about amazing and funny things you have said. Here are a few:

One teacher started her lesson by telling a story: "There once was a boy that went into a store with his Mom. In the store he put a piece of candy in his pocket and took it home without paying for it. What did the boy do wrong?" You responded: "He ate candy, and candy makes you weak!" Haha, your teacher laughed but corrected you and said, "No, he was stealing candy!" We've been learning the 10 commandments at home and you immediately shouted out: "Thou shalt not steal, and thou shalt not covet!"

Every Sunday Dad reads Bible stories to you kids out of an illustrated Bible book set we have. You and Ethan know so many Bible stories because of it-some of them I have never heard of! One week in class your teacher started to tell a story out of the manual about a man she had never heard of. She started telling that story of a man who wanted to see Jesus but he was too short so he climbed into a tree so that he could see Jesus as he passed by. You got excited and interrupted, "yeah, that's Zacchaeus!" and then you proceeded to tell about how nobody liked him because he cheated people out of money, etc, and how Jesus wanted to eat dinner with him and he repented and changed and then the people liked him. Your teacher was amazed that you knew this random Bible story!

During singing time in Primary we were singing Nephi's Courage. We got to the line that says, "when I'm discouraged" and Sister Kaltschmidt asked if anyone knew what discouraged meant. You were the only kid that raised his hand. She asked you what it meant and you said, "discouraged means that you couldn't do something and you feel sad, but you can just keep trying and maybe you'll be able to do it!" All the adults made an "ahhh" sound at such a wise answer from a little four-year-old.

During scripture study you often get serious and start talking about thoughts you have been having. Sometimes I don't know what in the world you are talking about ;), but sometimes you say the most profound things! The other night you said, "Dad, Satan knows what is right, he just wants us to do what is wrong." It wasn't a question. Ethan, sitting on the top bunk, scoffed a little, "no he doesn't!" he said. Then we explained to Ethan that you were right-Satan knows exactly what is right, he just doesn't want us to be happy. You have such a wise spirit-you understand so much at such a young age!

You've learned this year about how a sign with a picture covered by a circle with a line crossed through it means that that thing in the picture is not allowed (like a no smoking sign). I was driving along with you kids in May and we crossed some railroad tracks. You noticed the Railroad Crossing Sign (the one with the two Rs and the crossing X). You said to me, "Mom! That sign said 'No Rs on the road', but that's silly," he gave a little giggle, "because Rs are letters and they can't drive!"


Friday, January 6, 2017

Lolo turned four!

Lolo,

My sweet, darling boy. You turned four! I can't believe it. For some reason it is easier for me to believe that my oldest kid will grow up, but not you. I can't believe you aren't a baby any more.

I love you with all of my heart. You are your own unique boy and Dad and I just love who you are. Sometimes, when you do or say something, we just laugh and shake our heads and say: "That is SO Logan!" You are particular about things. At Christmas and your birthday when you receive presents you keep them all close together and will not tolerate anyone touching or moving them. You have an order to your things and you always know where to find them. And your toys always get put away on there shelf where they go.

You are a sensitive boy. You feel things deeply. You can get hurt feelings but you also care about what other people are feeling. If anyone looks sad you will hug and kiss them or share your toys. You are also learning how to take deep breaths and accept that sometimes things won't go your way. The other day you took a drink out of Ethan's water bottle. He got mad and yelled at you "Logan! You're not supposed to drink out of my water bottle!" You immediately started crying and said, "yes I can!" and then stopped, became really calm, and said, "You're right. I need to ask first. Ethan, can I drink out of your water bottle?" Ethan, still upset, said "no!" You stayed calm and said, "Okay, you can say no if you want to. That's okay." And you were fine! It was amazing. You have come a long way in being able to control your emotions, and we work on it a lot, but I am just so proud of you because I know its not easy. I hold my emotions close to the surface too and I often still struggle to control myself. I'm just proud of you at almost four being able to do that.

You are a talker! You will talk Mom's ear off, especially in the car, as you explain each and every detail-or alternative-to what you are thinking about! If someone interrupts you or says that they didn't understand something you start all over at the beginning as if they didn't understand the first part. This makes Dad and I chuckle inside because we know how exact you like things. For example, if you say: "Hey Mom, Can you come help me find my lego piece?" And I say, "help you find what?" You will start over, "Hey, Mom? Can you come help me find my lego piece?" And sometimes if you feel I'm not listening you will say, "Hey, Mom? Hey, Mom? Hey, Mom" over and over and over again until I answer satisfactorily, which funnily enough is not a nod of my head or a "Yes, Logan?" or sometimes even a "What Logan?" its whatever you were expecting me to say! Which sometimes leave me confused as to what you want. But i just love how precise you are about things.

You have big blue eyes that are so expressive. I love to see your face as you talk and explain things. You love to give your Momma hugs and kisses. You love to be tickled and chased. You love to get belly bloopers and snuggles. You LOVE to laugh, giggle, be silly, and TEASE EVERYONE. Especially Clara. Clara adores you and follows you everywhere. She doesn't necessarily love all the teasing but she does love it when you pay attention to her. Ethan loves to be with you too. You guys are brothers so you fight sometimes, but more often then not you get along very well and love to be together. You are so excited for Ethan to get home from school so you can play with him and I love to see you interacting.

You love to wrestle and run around and be silly, but you also love to sit and play with toys and Legos and read books. Sometimes you just sit and talk to yourself or play with your hands. I love how I can tell you are really thinking while you do that. You are definitely a deep thinker already. You love to ask questions and think about things from all different angles. It is a gift you have that I'm sure will help you in life.

I hope you know how very much I love you. When I think of you my heart bursts to fullness with emotion. You are the sweetest, darlingest boy and I can't get enough of you.

Love,

Mom